There is so much I want to do everyday. I am such a motivated person! This can be both good and bad! I have such a zest for life (on most days). I just want to go, go, go!
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed. Not lately. Sometimes I feel super productive. I have been in that mode lately. Yet, no matter what I accomplish each day, I never feel like it is enough. There is always more to do! More that I want to do! I have worked so hard ever since having Jolie at trying to relax more and simply enjoy the everyday moments, especially with my kids.
This approach to life has made me less productive overall, but happier. I have been trying to think, really think, about everything I do. I need to pay more attention to the little, everyday moments with my kids. These little bits and pieces of our life together are so important! There is so much I want to teach my children. I am trying harder each day to take advantage of “teachable” opportunities.
I am raising all daughters, and this is a responsibility (and honor) that I do not take lightly. What most people do not know about me is that I have pretty much paid for everything in my life since I was sixteen years-old. I am a fiercely independent person…because I have had to be. I want my girls to be strong and independent, also. I want them to be able to take care of themselves in life. I am trying my hardest to help Reilly and Addie discover their talents and abilities, along with their interests and loves in life. I want them to be the best that they can be. I want to provide them with many different opportunities.
I want them to have healthy, happy, and successful lives. I love the fact that we are able to put our children in multiple activities. Right now, I am trying to figure out what Reilly and Addie will do this summer. I love keeping them involved in a variety of activities. Addie will definitely stay in gymnastics all summer. Both girls will be in swimming lessons one final time, and they WILL learn how to swim completely on their own! They are signed up for private lessons that begin very soon. I am currently looking into art classes in the area and any other opportunities for children I can find within an hour of us. They love being involved with activities!
It is a challenge to balance a professional job (and one that requires much work beyond the regular work day), a family, a house, physical therapy three times a week, Dave’s negotiations, and the girls’ activities. Plus cleaning the house, doing the laundry, preparing and making meals, playing with the kids, teaching Reilly to read, reading to Reilly and Addie every night… I am sure I am forgetting a million and one other responsibilities at this time! Then in our “free time”, we visit with friends (one way or another), take pictures, edit pictures, blog, work on home improvement projects, and talk about many other things we would LOVE to do…if only we had more time! Some days I feel totally overwhelmed! But I am learning to simplify…
I write goals every week (I am not kidding). I type them. I print them. I work on achieving them every week. What I have learned is to cut down on the number of goals I set each week…and each day…of my life. I prioritize and try my best to let go of what I do not “get to” each day…
There is just too much that I want to do! Plus throw in the fact that I am a total neat freak…but can NEVER get every detail in my house to be perfect all at once! That drives me crazy! I just.cannot.do.it. I know it is more important to spend time with my kids than to have a perfectly neat and clean house at all times, but wow, do I ever love a neat and clean house! Super neat and clean!
I am sure I will always feel like I do not accomplish enough…but I am trying hard to focus more on what does indeed get accomplished each day. More and more, I realize that if I bond with my kids and pay more attention to the little moments with them, then I have been successful. Time goes by too fast, and I have learned to back off of many of my own personal and professional goals to just be with them…and just BE. I am enjoying motherhood now more than ever. I need the other things in my life, too, but the majority of my time, my energy, and my efforts is invested into my own children.
Here are some fun new things about the kids:
Addie (almost 4 years-old): Out of the blue: “My real name is Hannah Montana. My second name is Addie J. McEntyre.” This kid cracks me up every single day!
Reilly and I attended a birthday party for one of her kindergarten friends this past Saturday. There were lots of fun girls there from kindergarten. It was a pool party at a hotel. What a blast the kids had!
Jolie is getting her first two teeth (the bottom ones) this week–at six months old! Reilly was four months old, and Addie was 5 months old. None of my kids have ever fussed over getting teeth. Jolie sure does drool a lot, though! Yuck! Not my favorite thing! She is also sitting up, rolling over, and even *trying* to crawl. Hopefully she does not crawl for some time yet…
And yes, I have photos, lots of photos…but no time to edit them. I am hoping to have some (alone) time to work on my photos very soon! Then it will be photo overload on here, I am sure!